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First and foremost:
I am a terribly aweful person. I am a waste of life. Of space. Of time. I'm just a fucking waste. Anyone who disagrees is giving me far too much credit than i derserve. I finally know that.
Secondly:
I do not deserve a single good thing that comes to me. I deserve nothing but badness.
I am a hypocrite in all ways possible. And i hate hypocrites.
You should definaitely be disapointed in me.
I respect you so much for loosing alot of respect for me.
I was very lucky (for once). Things could have turned out far worse.
What is it going to take to get this through my mind?
To anyone and everyone who is angry:
Thank you. For being angry with me. It's the least you could do. You're all much better off without a friend like me. Thank you for your concern. You're all brilliant. You'll all be even more brilliant if you never, ever, ever forgive me.
I love you all so much for putting up with every terrible thing i've ever done to you, or anyone else. I can't believe i've ever had the privlege to have such wonderful friends. I didn't deserve a second of it. If you just forget about me entirely, i think it would be the best thing for you to do.
I mean every word of this.
And i'm sorry. I'm so sorry. But i know a thousand apologies won't make up for what i did. I'm so sorry i was more of a burden to you, than a friend.
Never find it in your heart to forgive me.
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[18 Sep 2003|05:08pm] |
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I'm in a great mood right now..
Today was the best day at cross country practice ever!! I got a ride from syd and we changed at tyty's with tyty and pat, and for some reason matt was there for a little while too.. Tyty has the most *amazing* snacks at his house! Thennn we went to practice and went over the meet, syd and liz both got shirts which was awesome because they totally deserved them. Then i went for a 45 minute "run" with tay, hil, liz and pudd. We went through Narnia and came across that huge haunted barn which i'd never seen before, and then ended up at this cute little cabin. We all dreamed about fixing it up and putting a hammock out back and just living there with a boyfriend or something. Then we heard voices and it ended up being tyty, sean, abbs, syd, and pat.. i made an attempt to scare them but it didn't work out so well. They continued on with their run and me and the gals went to check out a smaller, creepier barn. Around there we heard voices again so we went to follow them and it ended up being kyle hennigar and other guys. They were pushing down trees in second maudslay. It was hilarious. I think that moment made my day. Then me and the girls went down to the beach, and realizing it was time to head back, me and tay like scaled a cliff. It was practically at a ninety degree angle. We then had a nice jog back and arrived just in time to play the crayon game. Wicked sweet. Now i'm home chillen out.. I'm gunna go eat dinner/do homework and then head over to the boys soccer game. I hope everyone elses day was just as great!
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[07 Sep 2003|08:09pm] |
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okay!
First meet tommarow @ masco.. I'm a little nervous but since i'm the last runner on the team i don't effect the score. Which is good. I think.
I would like to proclaim my recent annoyance to all who will listen. I'm sick of people who get pissed because their friends have other friends besides them. And then. The people get mad that they feel they aren't friends with their friends' friends, but in truth they make no effort what-so-ever to hang out with their friends' friends. If that made no sence at all, its okay, because it made sence to me.
In my opinion, it's okay for people to hang out with their older friends all the time.. but if you're going to do that you cannot get mad at your grades' friends for "excluding" you.. cause then it would be like me, getting mad at one of them, because when they went to hang out with their older friends- they didn't invite me. It just doesn't work.
Ahh!! Why is it that no matter what you do, it always results in someone being unhappy with your decision.
If you ever find yourself, and that's what you only always find, realize a change may be in order. This is not always my opinion. Just always my observation.
[editorial note: if you took offence to the previous, please give it back]
^ oh god i sound like andy young..
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[23 Aug 2003|12:46pm] |
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Yesterday was basically my last day of complete summer freedom. I figured this because i have to work today, tommarrow, (not monday but i have xc practice), tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday, and then saturday will be my final day at Winfrey's EVER!! I am pumped. But i also have xc alllll week, so i'm gunna be a wreck. Then next sunday we're brining my brother to college, and monday and tuesday are my last two days before school starts. Ahh this is nuts. But i'd have to say yesterday was quite an excellent day, so i'm happy. :)
I woke up at nessa's, then went home real quick before getting dropped off at kristen's... me, kris and syd went to the beach.. willy, aaron, tt, tyty and rob later came.. me and syd left, i returned home and then alex, ness, betsie, and joe picked me up and we went to indian rock. Great place, brings back lots of memories. Thennn we drove around for a bit, went to betsie's (she has the cutestt kitten EVER) and dropped her off a her grandparen'ts house, then headed over to agawam diner. That was good, i'd never been there before. Came home, showered, then sean and rob picked me up with jenna and mike in the other car and we met up with chris, kyle, tyler, matt, and dan and went to cinemagic to see S.W.A.T... Colin farrel is absolutely gorgeous and the movie was pretty good too. Then i came home and fell asleep. So that was my last day of entire freedom, and i'd have to say i'm pretty content with it. :)
Though i'd post when i was in a good mood for once..
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| I just wish life weren't so sad sometimes. |
[19 Aug 2003|09:47pm] |
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Today was a complete waste of a day. All i did was work. And now I'm home, alone, trying hard not to dwell on the fact that i'm slowly realizing how many of my "friends" really don't consider me a friend at all.
It's times like these when it'd just be so much easier to have a boyfriend. Someone who makes you feel beautiful, and who would be there for you no matter what other people thought.
Thinking about my parents makes me cry. I feel so bad for them to have gotten such a terrible daugher like me. I'm an aweful daughter, and friend. And it sucks for my parents because it's only when i have no friends that i'll take an interest in them. And i know they'll be there for me for my entire life but like- i wonder why. I suppose it's just some unspoken rule you know; if you're a half decent person, you have to be there for your kids no matter what. But if i treated anyone not related to me the way i treat my mom and dad, they would make sure they had nothing to do with me. I guess it's kind of hard to explain.
I guess i just feel bad for my mom because i'm such a bitch to her. And she's so happy. She's so happy gardening and redecorating the house.. she's just in some own little world of hers where everything is okay, everything is alright. But maybe it isn't. Her mother and father just died a few months ago, and her older brother is a complete asshole, so she's got to be the strong mother to me and michael, and the stable sister to her younger sister carole. Sometimes carole will cry at family gatherings. Like fourth of july and christmas. I remember at christmas i was in her room and she went over to the closet to look for something and she just looked at me and said, "You never get over your mum dying; it's your mother." And she just wept silently. And i don't know what to say to people, i don't know how to comfort people. This is another reason i'm such a bad daugher. Some people are so helpful and always know the right things to say. But me, i can only listen. And i never feel that that's enough.
My dad is a different story. He doesn't usually seem happy. His father died when he was five years old. Sometimes he'll talk about it, and whenever he does he doesn't cry or anything, but i always want to. Sometimes we'll be in the car and i'll just stare straight ahead of us and cry for my dad and we'll be silent. He works long days at a job i don't think he even likes. His children get annoyed with him so easily, and he's always so nice to them. He falls alseep at night on the couch with the TV on. All the money he makes he spends on us- his frigen bratty and spoiled children.
I want to do something to the both of them. It's 10:03 pm on Auguest ninteenth, and i just remebered that tomarrow, the twentieth, is their twentieth anniversary. I want to do something special for them.
I get so motivated to do all thse great things but when it comes down to following through with them i just get lazy and i would rather go out than stay in and do something nice for someone else.
There's a big part of myself that needs to feel accepted. Right now, i feel utterly rejected by everyone and everything.
I just wish life weren't so sad sometimes.
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| ..is it possible to have so much and feel like she has nothing at all? |
[09 Aug 2003|12:24am] |
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| My heart... it aches.. because of you.. |
[01 Aug 2003|01:07pm] |
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Wednesday was a very excellent day. I escaped newburyport, and it twas great. I started off the day by going to the mall with my mom and getting a shirt/present for liz's mom's wedding (which by the way is this sunday and i am verrry excited). I also got a wicked hot, hot pink skirt. Yes, i'm lovin it.
I then went out to lunch with my mom and (cousins) jess and rory. Had the most amazingg watermelon lemonade. Came home, cleaned my room which i so badly needed to do.. this part of the day was kind of a blur.. then around 9 rory and jess came over, we went to hampton beach and got stuck in aweful traffic, but we made the best out of it because we blared "Let's Get Retarded" and had some quality laughs. Let's see.. rory bought me fried dough and i bought jess a necklace.. a random guy loved rory.. It was actually quite amusing. This guy starts walking toward us, holding his chest and looking like he was in throes of pain, i thought he had been shot or something. Then he spits out; "My heart... it aches.. because of you!" (points to rory) "I love you!!" Hahaha. Worst pick-up line ever.
On our way home from hampton we get a drunk call from my brother. He was at a party at evan's which got busted up 5 minutes after he went downtown, so we met him at the go-karts and then we went over teddy's. Amazing room. It's not connected to the house, it's like his own little studio type thing. Aw, it rocks, i am jealous.
Yesterday i worked for an entire eight hours and then went to liz's which was wiked funny, and then downtown.
Today i plan on possibly visiting maren with lindsay and kelsey, but i don't want to overwhelm her so i don't know if i'm going..
I will post later.
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If i've learned one thing in my life, i've learned that there's no such thing as trust. And this applies to a variety of situations, but don't trust that people you don't know won't do psychotic things, because they will. People are fuckin nuts and they'll beat the shit out of you, and stab you, and shoot you, and rape you, and kill you, and rip you of your pride and make you feel worthless.
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[29 Jul 2003|11:33pm] |
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I just want to run away.
Forever.
I'm so tired of my situation.
I feel like everything is going down the drain.
Everything.
For everyone.
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[21 Jul 2003|06:14pm] |
Lucky little fuckers who got away... goddamn you all!!! :)
"What happened, you couldn't run fast enough?"
"No officer, i guess i have to train harder."
...If it happens again i'm screwed.
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[15 Jul 2003|01:00pm] |
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Heffer-T's entry started with three words that i think shall start my entry as well. They are; drama. drama. drama. ::shakes head::
Last night was full of it. I'm coming to terms with the fact that the crew will never hang out with alcoholic beverages without that sketchy "d" word playing into effect. It's a plain and simple fact. Yes, i have been guilty of arousing drama before, that i do not deny. But last night i was not the guilty party.
So.. i'd like to say a few things.
Abbey: i love you sososo sooo much, and cleary everyone else does to! And in a way it's totally unfair, but you need to do what you feel like doing babs. It's your life.
Liz: ::huuuuge hug::
and to the other's even though they won't be seeing this..
Josh: You are seriously one of the coolest guys in the world. You are so funny and full of life. You even like something corporate, so that definaitely makes you number one in my book. If things don't work out they way you'd like them to, hold your head up. You're an amazing person and one day, someone just as amazing as you is going to come along and things will work out for you. I promise you this! Keep a smile on your face, because your smiles are contagious.
Pat: Make sure you have your priorities in order. Have fun in virginia, try not to take 10 shots in a matter of 5 seconds down there without all of us. And no, you're not obnoxious. :)
Interesting night..
And i'm sorry if kyle and i seriously upsetted anyone with that whole statamite joke.. but honestly, the shit was hilarious. I have had people pull jokes like that on me before.. one time ty, syd, heather and a bunch of people made believe they were doing coke.. I mean i guess it's a touchy subject to joke about, but guys I'm anne trencher. I'm a jokester.
And another thing:
Hypocrits. I hate hypocrits. An example of a hypocrit is somone who writes TZ on their basketball sneakers back in january, and then drives drunk two days after they got their lisence. Yes, that would be why i hate hypocrits.
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[13 Jul 2003|12:06am] |
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::sigh:: The best few days have been quite a blast, i must say. I love summer, and i love the people i hang out with.
Hmm.. let's see, since i barely have a short-term memory i can't remember what i did on thursday.. oh i think i slept alll day cause i was fuckin tired, but that was nice to just relax. Then yesterday was sososososo soooo much fun. I worked, then came home and went to vanessa's.. andy and dube picked us up. Oh god i could not stop yelling at that kid (that kid being andy). He was so hilarious tho. We ate dinner, the four of us, at friendly's. As we were walking in andy decides to leap over a couple little bushes, and continue running.. into a trash can. It was seriously one of the funniest scenes i've ever witnessed. He just knocks over the whole damn trash can, and the top flies off and everything. Aw, it was just hilarious. After dinner ness and i got dropped off back at her house, where sean, mike, josh, pat, matt, and abbey came and picked us up. We drove to wendy's and then i got a brilliant idea to head over to Action Cove (best place ever). It was so fun, that is simply the greatest playground ever to have graced this planet. Not even kidding. I think i had more fun at that place last night than i use to have running around it when i was four. I got so wet and dirty but i loved every minute of it. And then mike and pat decide to ride tonka trucks down the wet slide.. oh god, that was just as funny as andy knocking over the trashcan. Haha, so after that fun we went to dairy queen, the Wa - Mart (as the sign clearly says), then to famous to pick up a drunk lindsay and tracy, and thennn to the waterfront. I decided two things the crew definaitely needs to do this summer is go skinny dipping and camping. Hehe..
I slept over nessa's last night and watched American Beauty.. great movie. Then today me, ness, and trac went to the beach which twas good, then i worked later on met up with the same people from the night before and we just hung out at jonah's work while he cleaned up, and then headed over to taco bell and here i am.
Off to a good-nites sleep!
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[09 Jul 2003|06:56pm] |
x. name = anne garvey trencher
x. gender = fem-fatál
x. birthday = 5.18
x. piercings/where= ears & bellybutton
x. tattoos/where= none! *tear* but i want this really cool butterfly-tiger on the inside of my hip.
x. height = 5'3''
x. shoe size = magic eight ball
x. hair color = boring brown
x. length = just past my chin
last...
x. movie you rented = Carrie with liz and abbey but we never ended up watching it..
x. song you listened to = "once again your eyes, make it hard to say good-bye, so i'll just keep driving..." [hint: it's Finch]
x. song that was stuck in your head = (see above)
x. song you've downloaded = J Ralph - One Million Miles
x. cd you bought = The Ataris
x. cd you listened to = Something Corporate
x. person you've called = Who the fuck knows.. christina? my mom?
x. person that's called you = vaness or my mom
x. you have a bf or gf = "bloody likely" right ness?
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = sometimes.
x. you think about suicide = "i'm only suicidal in the morning" [Ocean's Eleven]
x. others find you attractive = yeah... no.
x. you want more piercings = my nose.
x. you want more tattoos = the butterfly-tiger one
x. you drink = till the point that i'm intoxicated
x. you do drugs = NOOOO
x. you like cleaning = yeat the bun
x. you like roller coasters = yess! especially up-side-down ones
in the past month...
x. Drank alcohol: yes officer
x. Smoked: cigs when i was shitty
x. Done a drug: before graduation if that counts
x. Had Sex: Hah!
x. Made Out: ...hence the major SF.
x. Gone on a date: w/ myself
x. Gone to the mall?: maybe?
x. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: thank god i haven't
x. Eaten sushi: haha i did like two months ago in florida if that counts.
x. Been on stage: yup, last show ever in JJDC
x. Gone skating: nope
x. Made homemade cookies: nope
x. Gone skinny dipping: nope
x. Dyed your hair: no
x. Stolen anything: noo
favorite...
x. food = mexican *smile*
x. songs = Finch - Stay With Me, SoCo - Walking By, Airports, Konstantine, When it Goes Down, Straw Dog, Little, The Ataris - San Dimas Acoustic, Takeoffs and Landings, Boys of Summer, The Saddest Song (2), Juliana Theory - Into the Dark, Train - Drops of Jupiter, Dispatch - Flying Horses, The General, Walk with You, Counting Crows - Chelsea, Colorblind... this list is never-ending
x. thing to do = kiss hot men
x. thing to talk about = ? i dunno
x. sports = dance
x. sports to watch = high school basketball and hockey, and pro football and baseball
x. drinks = non-alcoholic beverages = Dole pine orange banana juice, Starbucks vanilla frapeccino, Snapple mango madness.. alc = corona and bicardi silver O3
x. clothes = sweatshirts and pj shorts
x. movies = Girl, Interrupted (thanks ness), Ocean's Eleven
x. holiday = New Years or Thanksgiving
what...
x. shampoo do you use = Aussie
x. perfume do you use = Angel by Thierry Mugler
x. shoes do you wear = all kinds, i am a shoe phene
x. are you scared of = the unknown
number...
x. of boys I have kissed?: around 5, but none have counted for anything
x. of continents I have lived in?: uno--> USA
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: A select few
*5 things you are wearing*
1. sweatpants
2. booty shorts
3. red tee shirt
4. willy's volcom sweatshirt
5. my ring
*5 things you are doing right now*
1. Iming Sean
2. Updating lj
3. beathing
4. changing the song
5. listening to musica
*5 things you ate in the last 24 hours*
1. meatball sub
2. an orange
3. special K
4. ravioli things
5. keebler elf cookies
*5 things you did so far today*
1. got lost running in maudslay
2. went to guiseppis
3. went over lindsay's
4. went to an ortho
5. talked about cancun
*5 things you can hear right now*
1. "whoaa there's something in the air tonight"
2. typing
3. -
4. -
5. -
*5 thoughts in your head*
1. i don't feel well
2. i look like ish
3. it's hot in here
4. i complain alot
5. my throats sore (i was trying to search for a postive comment but that was all i could come up with.. sorry guys)
*5 things you look for when your picking a boyfriend*
1. intelligence
2. beauiful, deep, dark eyes
3. sence o' humor
4. dark hair
5. laid-back, can do whatever
*5 things you would like to do in your lifetime*
1. I want
2. to do
3. enough
4. to be remembered,
5. and not forgotten.
*5 famous people you would have sex with*
1. eddie cibrian
2. hayden christensen
3. william tell from SoCo
4. josh hartnet
5. ben afflick
*Five things you love*
1. laughing
2. friends & fam
3. music!!
4. being happy
5. having fun doing out-of-the-ordinary stuff
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[06 Jul 2003|04:06pm] |
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Haven't had time to indugle in a full-blown entry, since.. prolly.. before finals. But i called in sick to work and told anyone who called me that i was just staying in today, so i've finally cleared up some time. Everyone complains about not having a job, but i am so over-worked it's unbelievable. And any moment i spent not in that goddamn candy store, i feel is a moment wasted if i'm not out having fun with my friends. Cause, hey, it's summer and our days are limited. So today was like my first day of summer doing absolutely nothing, and i have to say it feels pretty good. Ollie dropped me off from heathers, i showered, slept, read hp5, talked to jess and maggie, made some pasta, and now here i am. It's nice to take the day off. Having a job has made me realize how much i really do not want to grow up. I love being this age. I don't think i'll be able to take on all the responsibility that being an adult entails. I love just livin it up, doin whatever, havin fun. No worries. My summer is carefree. Minus random freak-outs.. which actually leads me to another topic. (read below)
Vanessa, you are such a good friend. Like i've just now realized how much i can really count on you, and how genuine of a person you are. If you ever need anything, know that i am always here for you. You are amazin' dude! I love ya!
Yeah, and that you-can-count-on-me-for-anything thing, applies to allll my friends as well.
I got my report card, i'm quite satisfied, except for spanish. I got a fricken B on my final! Like i know that a B is good, but spanish is my class! It's the only thing i just get, and i thought i did realllly well on the final, like along the lines of an A. Oh well. Yeah i got my shedule too. Damn fuckers down in guidance have not a clue. First semester i have three free blocks and second semester i have none. Count em: none. Dude, what is that!! I will drop out of school if this is not changed. And i'm also pissed that i have frigen williams for spanish next year, i really wanted addario! *tear* But i'm pumped cause i have mally for american literature. yeehaaww. And liz and i are lab partners! Yesss.
I know you all just love my little special effects.
Laura was up this past week. ::rolls eyes:: She's so goddamn dumb. I mean i love the girl, she was a really good friend of mine in middle school, but.. she's so different. Not saying i haven't changed tho. I just, i'm not partial (is that the right word?) to this new girl from south carolina. ::shrugs shoulders:: Oh well, she's gone now.
I'm kinda a bitch.
KINDA.
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I just had like a twenty minute talk with my dad about random shit, twas good. My dad's a good man. Anyways, he told me how he saw ty's dad and my dad said something along the lines of, "oh i saw your son driving around.." So now ty's prolly in wiked big trouble, cause his parents are incredibly uptight. He's prolly got it worked out so that it's somehow my fault. I don't care at all. We drove around with him on thursday and he really got on my nerves. He's really eveything i'm not. Not to say like i'm some awesome person or anything, cause i'm so not at all. But i'm much more laid back (most of the time) and i can just go with the flow, and have fun doing anything or nothing at all. He's so the opposite of that, and it basically comes down to me not having fun. And honestly, that's a rare occasion. He's very anti-everyone and i just love people in general. I'm probably talking shit but this is my journal and it's how i feel. And it's not that i don't like him, i simply prefer the company of others. I dunno, i prolly won't be seeing much of him this summer.
I'm off to laze around. Have a good one ya'll.
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just playing around with lj..
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[02 Jul 2003|12:19am] |
Seven things you love:
1. Music »something corportate, the ataris.. etc
2. Being with my friends
3. Laughing
4. When everyone in my family is getting along
5. Stareing at the stars
6. Summer!
7. Feeling loved.
Seven things you hate
1. love handles
2. skinny, pretty girls who have it all
3. feeling like you have to throw up
4. loosing things
5. being single
6. drama!!
7.
Seven random facts about you:
1. My legs are currently lobster red
2. I got a D+ on my math final both freshmen and sophomore years
3. I wear my hair up everyday
4. The ring on my finger represents oee and bubby
5. I sleep with my tv on, a night light on, and a doll and blanket
6. I'm wearing a pink shirt and it's actually syds
7. Liz is currently to my right, and abbey my left
Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex (but are not nessessary):
1. def sense of humor (good one chels)
2. beautiful, deep dark eyes and pretty eye lashes
3. dark hair, tan skin
4. ability to hold a conversation
5. if they can make me laugh
6. intelligence
7. nice arm muscles
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[30 Jun 2003|11:14pm] |
I'm wearing willy's hurley sweatshirt and its really comfy and smells soo good. I never wanna take it off. Willy, i'm stealing your sweatshirt! muhaha.
People (i've noticed) are very unappreciative of what they have these days. If i had all the things i dream of having, i would cherish them. I would never take them for granted. But no one seems to know how to do that anymore.
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[29 Jun 2003|12:32am] |
[ name ]: Anne Garvey Trencher
[ nicknames ]: annie, trench
[ born in ]: May of '87, in bean town
[ resides in ]: Nbpt
[ good student ]: semi-sorta
[ eyes ]: a cross between green, blue and gray
[ hair ]: brown
[ shoe size ]: 8
Last time you...
[ had a nightmare ]: don't know
[ said "i love you" and meant it ]: today to my mom & dad
[ ate at mcdonald's ]: a long ass time ago, and i never will again, that shit sucks
[ dyed your hair ]: before i permed it, my hair is wasted
[ brushed your hair ]: today
[ Washed your hair ]: today
[ checked your e-mail ]: not a damn clue
[ cried ]: haha, i dunno, within the past couple weeks, i have random half-cries sometimes (yes, it is the emo in me)
[ called someone ]: today
[ smiled ]: all day, i love working with lynsey she's so funny, and all my friends tonight always make me smile
[ laughed ]: tonight playing sex and orgasm in the car
[ talked to an ex ]: don't have any real ex's
[ do drugs? ]: not at all.
[ sleep with stuffed animals? ]: ginny and bonkie.. if no one in the world is here for me they will always be there
[ have a dream that keeps coming back? ]: nah
[ play an instrument? ]: nope, but i can play colorblind on the piano as alllllll of you know
[ believe there is life on other planets? ]: i think it's the only thing i truely believe in. it's so strong that it can't even be considered a belief anymore, i know there is other life out there. it's a fact
[ remember your first love? ]: ..mike burritt
[ still love him/her? ]: noo
[ read the newspaper? ]: sometimes when i'm eating my dinner
[ consider love a mistake? ]: never
[ like the taste of alcohol? ]: yes. corona, mudslides, bicardi silver.. you name it
[ believe in god? ]: yes
[ pray? ]: sometimes
[ go to church? ]: no
[ have any secrets? ]: yes
[ have any pets? ]: if my brother counts
[ talk to strangers who instant message you? ]: not anymore
[ wear hats? ]: not usually
[ have any piercings? ]: ears and bellybutton
[ have any tattoos? ]: i will some day
[ hate yourself? ]: yes though sometimes i manage to put up with her
[ have an obsession? ]: unfortunaitely food. i also like guys. oh and music »something corporate.
[ have a secret crush? ]: semi-secret, semi-crush
[ collect anything? ]: nah
[ have a best friend? ]: many
[ like your handwriting? ]: yeah, sometime told me it was sexy once
[ have any bad habits? ]: eating
[ care about looks? ]: don't we all?
[ boy/girlfriend's looks? ]: yes. sexual attraction has to be a present factor. and i'm not shallow, just truthful
[ friends and other people? ]: their looks? not at all.
[ believe in witches? ]: the harry potter type ::wink::
[ believe in satan? ]: i choose not to
[ believe in ghosts? ]: yeah
Current...
[ dress ]: sunflower boxer shorts and a white tee
[ mood ]: content, optomistic
[ make-up ]: brown eye shadow, mascara, eye-liner
[ music ]: something corportate - hurricane
[ taste ]: nothing (way it should be)
[ hair ]: up in a bun
[ annoyance ]: nothing at the moment
[ smell ]: summer :)
[ thought ]: how tommarrow should be a good day
[ fingernail color ]: regular.. my nails suck
[ refreshment ]: hmm.. the A/C i suppose
[ worry ]: not to freak out tonight/anymore.. vaness knows
[ crush ]: _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
Last person...
[ you touched ]: high-5ing matt green or waking my dad
[ you talked to ]: my dad, letting him know i was home
[ you hugged ]: not sure
[ you Instant messaged ]: maggie or ryan
[ you yelled at ]: hm. my dad today when he asked me about eight times about what my plans were
[ who broke your heart ]: brandon robinson in middle school probably. laugh out loud.
[ kissed ]: haha. z
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[19 Jun 2003|09:44pm] |
Damn me and my lack of updating..
I just got back from vanessa's, i ran there and then had a nice talk with her. Twas excellent, i didn't realize how amazing she is at the piano. I wish i was good at something like that!
Ugh i dunno, i just can't update anymore.
Last day of classes tommarow. Summer is finally here. Praise the lord.
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